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Friday, September 18, 2009
firstly i want to address to all those people who hate me, im sorry to most of u . i didn't know that i was actually hurting u so much but for those who know me well they will know im not always a bastard as always. for those who see that im always complaining about everything it is all because i have no one to turn to to face my problem , u may say im pathetic and deserve it but i dont really care. i have no life thats the main point so if anyone is able to change me , then u are the one whom i respect and will stand up to when i mature.
now now for the introduction of all times, im not actually writing an essay about my self but about my life journey and how hard or happy it is.
as what i said from my last post, im going to talk about my life from primary 3 onwards. but for today i will only talk about my primary school life, i next post then maybe will talk about my secondary school life.
when i was primary school i had lots of friends, good bad evil vunning all of sorts but there was one whom i always believe in and was very close to, his name is daniel loke , he was a person i could turn to when i had problems. he was good at chinese and during that time my chinese wasnt that bad, i all started to fail after a new teacher came to teach, i started to lose faith in my subject and let it slip backwards. i remember there was one day when i was punish by the teacher to go to another teacher's class and stand thr. that teacher told me off infront of the class!!!! i was so damn embarrased. when i started to fail it was okay at first because my brother tell me i have to fail before i can pass. i learned from that day that defeat is part and parcel of life and u have to live it happily, i wasnt this slim
primary 4, i grew fatter and fatter by day because of all the failures i made, 93 was the heaviest weight i ever had. life was hard being fat and all. from that day ir ealise since i have so much failures why dont i make the failures be my motivation and that was how my attitude of not falling back works.
primary 5, i found my BEST-EST OF BEST FRIEND!!!! my chow, klinton chow i my best friend we went through troubled times and quarrelled and fought. we were like brothers , i knew his parents his parents knew me , i felt like i have another sibling. primary 5 was the best time of my primary school life, i have so many friends and we were all very close to one another.
primary 6 was the hell year of my life , but i enjoyed it because i could finally make it in to the express stream because of her, my strictest teacher mdm sajini, she appeared on the news 3 times !!!! she help me get from a 156 to a 192. thats a huge leap!!! and all because of that i was able to face the world with pride again. untill sec one though. during that year i was the most well behaved in my entire 16 years of my life. and f u really want to know how well behaved i was u can ask my good friend jarrel!!! i was quiet and the whole class was also quiet, whenever u walk past my class u can only hear the teacher talking or the fan blades swirling. that was how well behaved i and my class was. i also had a crush on a girl during that year also her name is michelle. hahah still remeber i was teased by the class that i like a chiobu because im fat!!!
haha thats about all, the rest of my personal data i not going to give out , only when i talk to u one to one then i can leak out. some of the people who already know my past: koktung, bernard patrick, klinton , jiashun,jarrel,shaun, weehian, maybe joash as well? i think this are the few people for sweesheng i have not really talked to him indept about my life story but he already knows most of it. i really feel that im really drifting away from alot of people, im drifting from reality and its becoming more and more like my past already. i really dont wish for history to repeat it self again!!1
thats all for tonight though more coming up .. i hope i dont complain and disturb people so much any more. for those whom i have remarked before , im sorry.... and for sweesheng , i really wish that we could be the close friends we were from February 2009 till April 2009!!! im sorry for all the misdeeds i have ever done and hope to change.
i really need ur help friends, i need encouragement and push. oh and i remeber , for those who think im very arrogant because my prelim pass then i keep saying i fail and never study; i can swear with my blood to tell u , i really am not satisfied with my results, for english my pass mark is 60 and above, chinese is 50 and above. science is 75 and above ( damn it lah prelim got 74/100 not up to standard!!!) and humanities is 65 and above art is 55 and above. and thats all im asking for .
i really didnt study for my prelim i just flip through the book for info and the rest is because of the revisions i made while taking breaks in between classes.
olvls here i come!!! 37 more days till olvls 54 days till school end!!!
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