part one'
its been quite some time since i had writen anything about myself of the world.
well , i really want to do well for my o levels but when ever i look at ur i feel the seven deadly sins kicking in:
1. Pride
2. Avarice (Greed)
3. Envy
4. Wrath
5. Lust
6. Gluttony
7. Sloth
pride: i feel that its because of my nature of being an arse hole that makes me so irritable and when that happens i can hear the comments and labels passed on to me
avarice: greed is what i do now, im greedy for anything and everything, seems to me im so greedy i dont put others infront of me like last time.
envy : i am jealous of u guys having fun and all the laughter, yes i joined a new group of friends but i dont really feel the closeness like before, im envy of ur joy, im envy of ur happiness, im envy about u because u are always welcome by others no matter what the fucking shit u do wrong to others.
wrath : i really want to vent my anger at others for the joy and happiness captured within my black heart.
lust: i wanna take everything away from u all, and keep it all to myself.this is my self-destructive drive for some pleasure regardless of it's value, merit, or legality
gluttony: whenever i see joy and im not in it , i feel envy and when im envy i want to vent it out but because of my weak self i always see myself stuffing up my face with all the food and making me grow fat again, i dont want to go back to 96 kg again , this time it will be undone!!!
sloth: im just lazy about my olvls even though its coming up soon, really hope someone close can give me the encouragement and the push!!!
the 7 sins commited by be, im really a failure
after the death of my grandma i promised never to cry but it seems it will when i get back my olvls result.
really want to post about my secondary school life , but it seems that whenever i post this things about myself others will say i self inflicted and i deserve it, y cant u look at me from another angle?
life is unfair for everyone, if u think u are targeted then move on and do not listen to their false claims, thanks liza for telling me what i should look out for .
2nd part of my posti require some comments plss on my tag board. i've just been selected by my rcy mam, mdm sherry tan to koin the voluntary instructor programme, do u all think i should do it? i heard that red cross in jwss is getting from bad to worse, but i dont know what can i do so plss tell me.
can i get some encouragement or just a push from u guys. i just want u guys to say : SING ONN wake up , do ur work or u will never catch up to me , or sing onn u are such a failure cant even get a1 for anything , look at urself in the mirror and tell urself that no one likes u as their friend, or u are nothing without ur pride and envy. oh the joy of all those comments .
( 2nd rule to lee sing onn: every bad remark is a push to do well , every good comment is never good for all it does is make on slow)
going to post the 13 rule for me to survive and for all those who hate me plss comment me so i can do better...
studying has never been so dead, didnt study the whole day because parents were nagging like hell!!! oh the hell, i really need to study and exercise!!!
!!! ahh thats all for now untill we meet again
i may be changing blog skin because this skin is too child for me , comment from a some what girl life person
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